I’m not quite sure how to come back to a blog after ghosting everyone for two years. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about it, procrastinating, deciding not to come back, changing my mind, deciding to rebrand first, and then procrastinating some more. I’m really, really good at procrastinating. It’s kinda like my superpower.
So what the hell happened?
Well…sometimes life gets messy.
That’s not true…if you are alive and breathing then life will be messy. And mine…well, it’s been the absolute messiest. I’m not going to go into details, but here is what you need to know so that we can move forward.
I am now divorced. I chose to leave my 16-year marriage, and if you have ever been in that situation you know the struggle involved. To say it is hard would be a gross understatement. But here is what I know, or rather what I have learned, quite painfully.
Hard is not the same as bad.
Believing that statement when you are in the midst of incredible pain and turmoil is nearly impossible, but it is the absolute truth. The hardest things I have ever done in my life have also been the best. I’ve been divorced for almost a year now, and my life looks nothing like it did before. The custom home I have been blogging about for years is sold and gone, and I now live in a two-bedroom apartment. I’m in college and pursuing my degree in interior design. I’m no longer a stay-at-home mom to babies and toddlers, I am a single mother to four amazing young boys. Four young boys who are doing great and handling this transition like champs, btw.
Admittedly, I have written this post so many times. I have written pages and pages…a novel… about everything I have learned through this experience. Things I’ve learned about myself, about relationships, about God. About shame and boundaries and self-worth. About forgiveness, both for myself and for others. About letting go. And while it likely won’t be evident on this blog, I am not the same person I was a few years ago. I am harder in a lot of ways, and softer in many, many others. Often the best things in life are born from the hardest, most devastating, life-changing experiences. But there is beauty from ashes, hence the new name of this blog…. Wildfire Interiors.
So while my novel was healing to write, it was also healing to delete. All I really need y’all to know is that I am happy, I am whole, I am free, I am loved, and I am really, really looking forward to the rest of my life…whatever the heck that may look like.
Now that that business is out of the way and my procrastination streak is over (see, growth!) let’s talk about where we go from here.
Here is the good news…there is so much good stuff to come. Since my divorce, I’ve bought half an acre of land and have spent the last handful of months designing a new home, from scratch, for me and my boys. And something I’m even more excited about, is it’s not farmhouse style. Nope…I’m breaking free and we are going straight up mid-century modern. Starting in my next post we will be diving into that project. The planning of it, the inspiration, the floorplan, the finishes, the colors….tile and cabinets and lighting…
Along with all the new house posts I’ll also be doing lots of general interior design posts. Tips, ideas, things I’m learning in design school, etc. There will still be some DIY posts, but they will be smaller, less frequent, and much simpler. I’m really excited about this…I’m pretty DIYed out, to be honest, and am ready for more of the fun stuff and less of the endlessly sanding, priming, painting, and caulking everything in sight. I’ve paid my dues…now let’s pick out blue tile and gold lighting together already!
If this sounds like something you want to be part of, then CLICK THIS LINK and I will send you an email when I post something new.
A few more housekeeping things before I sign off –
I know many of you were very invested in my previous home. I’m not interested in looking backward and won’t be doing any follow-up posts about it, but if you want to see pictures you can check out my updated house tour by clicking the image below.(Spoiler – the house finally got bathrooms, and they’re so good!)
If you are looking to support Wildfire Interiors, this blog earns money in two ways.
The first is the ads you see on my website. I make money based on ad impressions (pageviews), so the more you click around and read, the more I earn. You don’t have to click on an ad or interact with it in any way, just the fact that it’s on your screen means I earn a penny or two. I fully understand and agree they are annoying and reading would be much more pleasant without them, but that’s just the nature of the beast.
The second is affiliate links. I really only bother with Amazon currently, and if you buy something (anything) on Amazon through one of my links, I earn some cash. Recently I put together an Amazon store of some of my favorite things, which you can visit by clicking the image below. You can also go to the Amazon homepage through my link by clicking here.
Anyway, to those of you that are still here, those of you that have supported me over the years, sent me messages of concern while I was gone….thank you. This blog is nothing without readers, and I have the best ones. I’m so excited for the next chapter and am thrilled you are here for it.